|Wheelchair at the Trans-Allegheny Lunatic Asylum by Shane Fox|
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Paralyzed by Fear
Brennan Manning tells the story in his book Abba’s Child about a handicapped boy and his father. Brennan writes:
One night a friend asked his handicapped son, “Daniel, when you see Jesus looking at you, what do you see in His eyes?”
After a pause, the boy replied, “His eyes are filled with tears, Dad.”
An even longer pause. “Because He is sad.”
“And why is He sad?”
Daniel stared at the floor. When at last he looked up, his eyes glistened with tears. “Because I’m afraid.”
In my life, I have noticed that there are many things that keep me from living out what God desires for my life. I have lived in willful disobedience at times. Other times I have lived in ignorance at what God wants for me. And I have also lived in fear.
Fear is the one that cripples. Fear paralyzes us from moving forward in what God desires for us. Jesus’ desire is that I walk with Him on the road He chooses. Sometimes I have stopped dead in my tracks, afraid of what lies ahead.
As I look at my fear, and I notice that the sources of my fears are the same as for others. There is the fear of failing, or of being hurt. There are other fears as well. Some fear that they will not be loved. Others are afraid they might make the wrong decision.
I have had all of these fears at one time or another. I find myself wanting to move forward and embrace His plan for me, but fear gets in the way. It is like a strap that binds me to a wheelchair. My heart wants to walk and get going ,but fear keeps knocking me down.
How do we get free from these fears in our lives? Well, I think the boy figured it out. The first step out of the wheelchair begins with seeing the fear and naming it. I have found this to be so freeing. Knowing what it is that is holding me back helps me to look at it and address it.
After I see the fear, I then take it to Jesus. With Jesus I learn that He does want more from me. More importantly, He assures me that we can conquer that fear together so I can get up out of the chair.
Finally, I need to get out of that chair and take the first step. I have often found that when I begin to walk, the fears go away. They don’t hinder as much when I am walking as when I am sitting in the chair.
Oftentimes, when I see Jesus looking at me, do you know what I see? I see Jesus cheering me on. And that often gives me the courage to jump out of the chair and leave it behind.